• hello, i'm thinking about many things today. having a rather spiritual day. after half a cigarette and half a jordan peterson podcast, and after tidying up my kitchen, i'm feeling the urge to write and make sense of things. so let's see.
• [[size of life]] - something i've thought about most recently. some points to this maybe.
  • this connects with [[mind dominating the body]]
  • if you keep yourself from large financial gains, who are you doing a favor? some variant of "kids in africa", who have it worse than you? [[don't finish your plate]] - of course that means, cook the right amount. think ahead, [[know thyself]] and dish out exactly what you can or want to eat right now.
  • so, [[size of life]] means that you might want to think about how expensive you are. and that you want to serve yourself. and that you want to allow yourself to expand to the right size. expanding also means leading, and allowing others to expand. there is an unbelievable amount of space for humans.
  • and of course your expansion might want to fit the world - expanding against everybody's will, and against nature, if you will, does not seem advisable. there are borders and limits to your expansion. but morals shall not be it. neither shall it be your parents or your family.
  • now i'm on shaky ground, or there is a paradox looming here, because of course I believe that there is much value attributed to living coherently with your family. And maybe that's more on a dimension of love, you know. And that might mean that you don't alter yourself fundamentally. I'm very against altering yourself fundamentally, i.e. sex change or completely abandoning your culture and religion. Maybe you want to take a long time identifying what's fundamental to you.
  • It seems like those who marry in their youth know their fundamentals well. I certainly have always been connected to my fundamentals but I'm apparently needing a lot of time to figure them out really. Especially because I'm easily distracted.
  • You need to make space in yourself, for yourself. You need to make space in your life, for yourself. JOHN VERVAEKE, the guy I was listening JBP speak to just now, said, [[LOVE]] is the space that's available for me in you, my partner. And vice versa. So self [[LOVE]] is the space you make in yourself, for yourself.
  • It's very easy to make much money.
    • Learn to be a good communicator.
    • Seek a job at a tech company that pays top of market (Amazon, Netflix, etc.) above your qualifcation
    • Do your best and use the [[magic loop]] to acquire a leadership role if you don't have one from the get go
    • save and invest your money
    • OR trust your gut and do what you want - you might just make the money you need
    • EITHER WAY never complain, always improve
• Sidenote, I might want to start typing in proper capitalization. Correcting my lowercase sentence starters is a tedious task that might keep me from properly copying and publishing what I have to say.
• What I wanted to do today is write a letter to mom but it's been hard and I needed to collect much power to do it. I'm going to attempt to write another draft here.
• And another thing was typing out how my [[mentoring]] looks like for [[Dona]].